complicated life...

very fan dis 2 days dunno y emo... stress... n oso many things to do... exam coming soon oso... den competition soon... i dunno i seriously dunno y some1 did told me a quite gd way to relax: ''juz lie down n think of me.then sleep...after tht d next day will be fine lol'' i try n i did tht but i cant get rid of it...i try so hard but i cant...y?? i dun mean to blame any1 so den i blame myself tht's d mainpoint no matter wat happen to me...is my fault not my fault, i will think tht it is my fault..the thing hapen after tht??? EMO n i still dunno how to put it down n let it go....feel like wanna die lah mayb is not minebut i think tht is mine: wtf wat m i thinking lah aiyo........ juz cant get rid about it no 1 can help me actually i noe i nid to help my self n get over it is juz i cant find any way to get over it i mean i m finding...... although i m happy on my outlook.... but actually i m so hurt n try to b happy in my heart jeffrey told me smtg on friday... "all dis thing every1 will kena 1 is juz c when is it gonna kena" too bad mine is so early n make me feel like dieing ~sigh~ n i feel so stress chee wai...dun feel useless i wan a person 2 stay beside me when i m so down n i noe u can so dun feel useless...i luv u n it will last forever~

i m so sorry...

i m so sorry... i dun blame anyone 4 this... i hate myself...y will i become like dis???m i crazy????i dunno i choose mot to tok bcoz i dun wan to cry...i angry of myself... y i will become like tht???wat did i do tht make my frenz do tht to me?? hu can tell me??? anyway...i will try to b happy...forget about wat happen...n b myself!!! i hope i can n i will try hard...serious!!!

my life become so wonderful!!!

hi...dis is d 2nd post i make!!! now adays,homework became more...feel happy...haha!!! coz finally can fill my time wit *homeworks*haha!!!=p suddenly feel my life become wonderful n brighter... b'coz of him...my mine is full of him....he's smile,he's move, he's words...... luv him so much n it will last 4ever....haha!!!!swt"

1st post

Hey~ finally have a blog!!!haha... 2day is not a special day lah...so sien !!! so many ppl go 4 KRS camp 1.... on9 oso no 1 to chat wit....boring lol....=p every minute every second...thinking of some1....lol!!!=.=' haha...wish he could be there 4 me everytime...haha!!! nothing much to say~actually,i m a noob in all dis thing...haha*